Tashi disappear when I left the house. Sometimes I will be grateful to him. At least I do not have houses and displaced. I request the closure of I love column.I said, we have to bid farewell to a period of time. To baby, I would like to stay away from the radiation. Gaisang that you will happy, please keep in mind that wherever and whenever you have me. I will wait for you to come back. I laughed.I said, I plan to go to a Xian, Let your baby take a look at this city, I would also like to taste the flavor of your hope. Come said Gaisang, you still I beat up. I laughed. Time seems to have been so promising up. Every day, I walk to the river bank to buy a lot of. I am a happy mother.
The end of June, when my body started to deteriorate. First of all, I was a very weak cold change. zero concern looked at me. He told me tactful, doctors say that I am not a child’s physique. I laughed. I say why not. As long as there is the possibility of one percent, I will have to try. zero, shaking his head. Since days, zero no longer hold me. But he has been accompanied by my side, never left.
My body is getting worse. Can not eat food. Vomiting daily Let me change the very thin. Skin started swelling. A chronic lack of vitamins, my hair began to fall off. The doctor advised me not to give birth to children. He will have to kill you. Kind-hearted woman held my hand. You still young, such as better physical custody again too late to have children. I shook his head. I said I wanted him to, he is life, is my life, I want him to. I will certainly ask him to. The doctor advised me to zero. I said I wanted him to. I cling to zero again, I feel the cold of his body.Gaisang, why do you. From that day after, zero again, I have. I feel that he’s ruthless hold me, I want to his body. Tashi like a long time before. You will love him, not you. I laughed zero. I know I will not refuse this zero.
Body good, I will zero to shopping malls to buy
costume jewelry. zero asked me to stay at home, I said I. zero very careful care of me, sunshine sprinkling on us, it is warmer. I laughed. I said zero, you know what, I am now very happy. Laughter zero. I come to remember the first time I saw him, the taste of the field.
Also in August to a Pro. To clean up my house is very clean, the windows open, air circulation. Filled with wood floor almost nowhere to go. I pregnant in the middle of dance. is zero, patrol me, afraid I would fall down. Our lives in perfect order.I said, you are now able to know what, I hope that life is so significant.
Intense reaction I can not breathe. With each passing day come as soon as a child, my body can not control the first few. The doctor examined my heart. You really can not have children. zero I said. You will die. Do you know what. You want him you will die. zero hugging me. I laughed. I say that we look to gamble on them, on the bet this time. zero. I love you, you know what. To you, I will survive. I will also leave their children born. I saw the tears zero. I him. I think it is the forgotten Tashi. I fully in the hope of life. zero sometimes attached to the head on my stomach, listening to his speech, baby.
When the end of August, zero to a business trip. Before I left before the zero hard to kiss me. Gaisang, I am afraid. I am afraid that no longer see you go. zero my face. I laughed. I say stupid, I will take a good. zero only travel for three days, three days, it will happen. I kissed him.
Hot. And dry air changed, it is turmoil. Baby animals were significantly disturbed. Let me breathless bursts of pain. I lay back home, such as zero. I will, I said to myself. There is a nameless body crashed flu. I feel in the fall, fall, fall to the endless darkness. I have pain. The measures were the pain is less. I also could not cry, baby on the fall. That I really can not have children. My blood red floor. Those scattered on the ground, immersed in blood, the strange beauty.
I lie down quietly to the ground. I know I am going to die. Keep blood flowing. Tashi appear in front of
fashion jewelry, to me with a smile. I tried to seize his hand. I caught, it is zero. zero hands good ice, I feel my blood is frozen. Tashi, zero, they appear in the non-stop in front of me, but I can not catch no one. I am not catch them.
The original, or only myself. I never owned one. I have only myself. In this darkness. I am the only. I am the only. Alive or dead.
I lay quietly, a sleepy hit. I want to sleep, do not wake me.
Side is just a show put up.
Finished writing the text above, I haggard effort. Was originally hoped that life is but a show put up. Is a beautiful bubble. In close proximity to it when broken.
Written records of time-span is very long.began in March, finished the fourth chapter, when I no longer write a long time. I began to fear, the beginning of tired. I often in the dark, thinking about my life, I experience.
We have a lot of people, many people are after us.
When I read the, Tashi and zero, I began to fear for life. I screamed peaks because of severe pain in the wound.
Chapter IV and Chapter V, I experienced a death, rebirth. When I was in the brink of death around the time, I thought of Tashi. The life I used to love the man. The clean, he will disappear, but I am struggling to stay.
At the end of time, I put an end to this text. It recorded my life, real life, my wound was clear to untie autopsy. At the end of fiction. Because I did not die.
In August, I completely cut off contact with. I do not want the lives of another long-winded. I left the river city, alone came to the other cities. I still write to suppress the text, still rely on these words of life. I really started looking for hope. Because I have experienced death, I need hope.
In fact, I hope life is really scene. We play the role of accidentally lost, we lost our lives.